Relearning to Feel by Chad S Sides
Heart ripped out in a flash of agony
Angst spurts forth as if arterially
I may not yet be in my grave
But it's no less a fatality
Cauterize the wounds
Pulling blades from my spine
Rage doesn't fix me
But it's the only thing that's mine
Erecting temples to my torture
I cling to the familiar
Loathing building up my structure
Love is knocking down all my pillars
I hate that I love to hate
How can I pray for my enemies
Love opens sores in my skin
Is pain worth the remedy
Can I learn to feel all over again
Betrayal that is my history
Breeds murder in my legacy
Grudge is what I've always known
Suppressing all my clemency
Can I live without my anger
Without accusing my detractors
But hating those that hate me
I see takes so little character
Tearing my soul to shreds
As I seek the healing for my cancer
I find release for myself
When I release my trespassers
Show me how to stop the hate
Teach me to pray for my enemies
Love heals the scores in my skin
The pain is worth the remedy
Lord I want to feel all over again